Stop Expecting the Pain
'Finally, brethren, whatever things are true, whatever things are noble, whatever things are just, whatever things are pure, whatever things are lovely, whatever things are of good report, if there is any virtue and if there is anything praiseworthy—meditate on these things.'
Phil 4:8 (NKJV)
I hurt my back really badly a few days ago. We went away for a weekend break and stayed over at a hotel. Most hotels have a coffee station, and this one was no different, except the kettle, mugs and coffee were placed on a coffee table which was just about knee-height.
I was making our morning cuppa but was standing very awkwardly bent over while preparing the coffee. When I was done, I picked up my hubby’s mug to hand it to him, and a pain like I haven't felt in a long time shot up from my lower back and up my spine. The pain was so intense that I couldn't stand up straight. There I was, holding back the tears, stuck in this weird bendy position. Needless to say, we cut our day short and headed home soon after.
These last few days I have been feeling very sorry for myself to say the least! I am no stranger to pain and generally thought I had a very high pain threshold. But this time, I couldn't walk my daughter to school and the constant pain left me feeling fatigued and a bit low because of it.
I had prayed over myself and asked my mom & our prayer group at church (yes, there’s power in numbers!) to pray for me, and I was constantly declaring 1 Peter 2:24 over me - That by Jesus Stripes I have been healed. I know God heals. I know He had already healed me and that my body was still coming into alignment with that truth...but everytime I moved, I overcompensated in any way I could, to avoid the spike I knew was coming.
A WAKE-UP CALL
Then this morning I had a bit of a wake-up call. I was getting out of bed, holding my back like I was nine-months pregnant, waiting for the shot of pain that I ‘knew’ was coming, when I heard the soft gentle voice of the Holy spirit ask me: ‘Why are you expecting the pain?’
It hit me so hard that I just stood there for a minute as the words sunk in. My mind spun as I thought about my movements the past few days. Every time I sat down, got up from sitting, tried to lay down, stood up from the bed or tried to walk up or down the stairs, I was expecting to feel the sting, To top it off, this is all while praying, declaring healing scriptures & ‘actively’ standing in faith for my healing. Or so I thought. And then it hit me again!
‘Oh my goodness - I was actually ANTICIPATING & WAITING for the pain to strike!’
I realised that I was not focused on and EXPECTING my healing, even though I was ‘doing’ all the right things’ (praying, speaking scripture, etc) but rather, my focus was on the pain I was waiting to feel with every move.
The bible says that it’s impossible to please God without faith. (Heb 11:6). How could I be speaking the Word, but still expect the opposite to happen.
As I thought about it, a wave of God’s compassion and love flowed over me as I realised that there is no condemnation for those who are in Christ. (Rom 8:1). There was no need to beat myself up about it - as us girls tend to do sometimes. I just had to get back into His presence and start again. So grateful for second, third and a myriad of chances!
I had to seriously shift my thinking and prayed that the Holy Spirit would make me more aware and asked him to help me recognise when my thoughts were not aligned with God’s thoughts and His promises. Amazingly, I also started to feel much better since coming to the realisation of my mis-placed focus.
God is so faithful and we may think we know it all and have it all together when we’re speaking and standing in faith. But today I realised that being mindful of what we are thinking is as important. We have to be aware of satan who roams about seeing who he can bait with subtle lies without us even realising it’s presence.
Is there something in your life in which you recognise a similar pattern? What are you standing in faith for, but subconsciously, are actually waiting for the worst. Take time to meditate on a scripture that applies to your situation and ask the Holy Spirit to reveal any areas of your life where you need His intervention. Also read Philippians 4:8 and meditate on what God says we should be focusing on every day. This is how we can walk in the freedom God has for us.
PRAY WITH ME
Father, Thank you for Who You are. Thank you, that even though you are the Almighty Creator who created the earth and everything in it, You still care so much about what goes on in my life. Holy Spirit, I pray that you help me recognise when I am not walking by faith. Guide me to live my life and do everything by faith so that I fully please my Father. I place my trust in you. Thank you for your grace and your love that endures forever. In Jesus name. Amen
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